So, like the title said , some stuff happened to me.
I don't know what to do so i'm reviving my deviantart in general.
Six months ago i had a Stress atttack. Why? So many reasons. But the biggest reason of all was that my parents didnt let me go art college. Sounds so silly when i write ... basically the college was to far from home, with dangerous surroudings and stuff. And i also discover that my dad dont agree that i should do anything related to art because art don't give you money. I know he's Wrong....
but i have so afraid of my father... he dont abuse or hit or anything like that but... his words , hurt more that anything.
When he talk to me, i tried to not respond. Or everything will get worse. And being silence while someone is get you down is so painful... I KNOW that i have a good point to make. I know that i should do something. But i couldn't. I just sit there, listening to him saying that i should do something useful for my career like turn into a doctor or a lawyer.
I felt so useless, lost, depressive, weak. I could do what i loved. I felt betrayed by my parents. I though they supported me.
I didn't wanted to draw anymore. Everytime i tried to draw, i rememeber the day that all my dreams and plans was flushed down like it was shit.
I'm definitely better now, but i still remember like it was yesterday.
Is been six months. But i didnt feel the time pass. I don't know what day is unless i ask someone.
I had a really bad semester, and for my mental heath, i think would be good use my deviant again, to both art and personal writing (also is a good way to pratice more my english)
I will TRY to NOT forget to come back here